I have a beautiful, intelligent and extraordinary friend, that we shall call D. She is an activist, urban, modern woman who has her head on straight. She has always been one to defend others, stand up for equal rights, and many other things I give her standing ovations for. Just finished her Masters degree she is off to rule the world. She and I have always clicked, from the very beginning since we share many of the same views on life and how we choose to live ours. She and I have always done things similarly and have truly in every sense, grown up together. For example we shared hard first loves, harsh realities about life and religion, first heartbreaks, college, discovered ourselves, underwent family issues…every single thing we did we could relate to each other and support each other. Now the time has come where I can only offer support. She found out that she was pregnant last week, and the father of her baby left her. This wasn’t any one night stand or anything of the like. This was a man head over heels for her…until she got pregnant. He simply texted her that he no longer wanted contact with her and that he would have none of it.
Distraught, hurt, abandoned, confused and overwhelmed she went to the clinic to have an abortion. She and I have always shared the same views on pro-choice, and both knew that it was a very valid decision. We’ve always said “every baby should be a wanted baby.” As she sat there at the clinic answering questions with the doctor she felt something she thought she would never feel; a change of heart. She just couldn’t do it. Something inside of her (literally) wouldn’t let her go through with the procedure. She instantly felt motherly instincts that she never knew she had in her. She immediately started talking to the doctor about her options and after a long hour there left, ready to conquer her pregnancy.
D texted the father and told him that she had made a decision and wanted to share it with him. His response? There wasn’t one. He never replied to her. How could someone do this, I don’t know. How do you not only abandon the mother of your child but the child as well? Or at the very least he could offer support. Anything in this hard time and life changing event. I can only shake my head in shock and complete disgust.
Now D is coming home to MN to get the baby’s next 9 months of life prepared. She is fully aware that at any moment she could miscarry. Any moment decide to give the baby up for adoption. Any moment decide that she will raise this child alone. Whatever she does, I am sure she will make the right decision for herself and this child. This entry is for all the women out there who are in the same boat or have ridden in this boat; For every single woman who was left to make this decision on her own, raised a child alone, gave a child up for adoption…anything. This is to all of you.
Give D your support, advice or story and follow her journey @ noslekkimnwad.wordpress.com. (Simply click on the link ‘Birds and Bees’ on the right side of my page to be directed there.)
I love you Mama Bear.